because i do what I like to do.
because i watch what i want to.
because i don't smoke or drink.
because i am the one that thinks.
because i hold my imagination tight.
because i stay up on the computer late at night.
because i listen to "whatever the fuck" i listen to.
because i dont do what you do.
because i am "anti-social".
because i like cartoons you have never heard of.
because i would rather hear something of substance rather than the bullshit the media feeds you.
because i say random things.
because i use inside jokes and leave you confused.
because i love reminiscing about the good ol' days.
you look at me sideways....
because why?
i'm not "cool".
i'm not "in".
and i like it that way..
i dont care what you think about me.
i really dont.
i dont get all the females.
i am a nice guy.
i do my job.
i listen to my elders.
i am respectful.
the next time you see me do something that isn't normal for you...just realize that it is completely normal for me.
the next time you hear me sing a lyric from a song that you dont know...just realize that that you will never understand.
the next time you ask me about something and i give you my answer but you dont seem to understand...just realize that me and you have completely different thinking proccesses.
the next time you question my decisions...just realize that your decision making skills haven't fully bloomed.
the next time you call me "different" or "weird"...just realize that i am not different nor weird.
iamme.raymondrichardmontanothesecond.
all this kind of spawned from the people at work not understanding me as a person.they dont "get" anything that i do and are always trying to get me to do shit so i can be more like them.
haha.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Im sick of these rappers that claim to be real hip hop and claim to be hard
"These dudes are like Toddlers" Q Tip
Im sick of what mainstream hip hop has become. Ever since Nas proclaimed hip hop was dead over a year ago, people have started mindless beef with him taking the message personal. Now one year later nothing has changed. The dope artists don't sell and the clowns make a little money. Everytime I hear Hot 97 which is the huge rap station in New York they say this is hip hop and the Soulja Boi joint comes on. 50 is the biggest clown. In the I get money video he proclaims that "this is hip hop". That is not what hip hop used to be. Even when Puff and Jay were blowing up into major superstars you still had diversity. What are we hip hop heads suppose to listen to?
And of course you gotta have those rappers who act hard even though they fake as hell. That brings us back to 50 and Tony Yayo who both claim to be hard when they got their asses kicked by Ghostface Killah who is one of the realest. The irony about this is that Ghostface never talks about what he did he just uses his actions speak more than words. Styles P who is real does talk about what he did but he glorifies doing something good with your life. Im not saying all rappers who act hard are all fake. Uncle Murda is one of the realest, he glorfies killing cops and shit like that. Even though he is a very ignorant person, that is what he grew up with, he is a product of his own environment.
Now another problem with hip hop is the hip hop heads who just pounce on every young rapper and calls him the best alive or even a GOAT. Like a lot of the people who go on the hip hop sites. Lupe Fiasco who is an alright but incredibly overated rapper annoys the crap out of me. People are calling him the greatest of all time even though he has put out one album and the album was dope because of the production. Hip hop heads are also too ignorant to give some dope mainstream rappers a chance.
One more problem with hip hop which may be the most important is the record labels. The record labels sign rappers like Joe Budden and Papoose and others and then drop them. Then put their labels behind the Young Leeks that dont pan out. Or put under weak rappers who have no talent like Young Jeezy. The Joe Buddens and Papooses of the world won't be able to put up a legacy because by the time they find a label that gives them full control of the album until they are in their early 30s.
I love hip hop and not all things you love can be perfect but this shit is embarassing when people ask you "oh you are one of those 50 cent fanboys?" because that is the perception from people who don't listen to hip hop.
Im sick of what mainstream hip hop has become. Ever since Nas proclaimed hip hop was dead over a year ago, people have started mindless beef with him taking the message personal. Now one year later nothing has changed. The dope artists don't sell and the clowns make a little money. Everytime I hear Hot 97 which is the huge rap station in New York they say this is hip hop and the Soulja Boi joint comes on. 50 is the biggest clown. In the I get money video he proclaims that "this is hip hop". That is not what hip hop used to be. Even when Puff and Jay were blowing up into major superstars you still had diversity. What are we hip hop heads suppose to listen to?
And of course you gotta have those rappers who act hard even though they fake as hell. That brings us back to 50 and Tony Yayo who both claim to be hard when they got their asses kicked by Ghostface Killah who is one of the realest. The irony about this is that Ghostface never talks about what he did he just uses his actions speak more than words. Styles P who is real does talk about what he did but he glorifies doing something good with your life. Im not saying all rappers who act hard are all fake. Uncle Murda is one of the realest, he glorfies killing cops and shit like that. Even though he is a very ignorant person, that is what he grew up with, he is a product of his own environment.
Now another problem with hip hop is the hip hop heads who just pounce on every young rapper and calls him the best alive or even a GOAT. Like a lot of the people who go on the hip hop sites. Lupe Fiasco who is an alright but incredibly overated rapper annoys the crap out of me. People are calling him the greatest of all time even though he has put out one album and the album was dope because of the production. Hip hop heads are also too ignorant to give some dope mainstream rappers a chance.
One more problem with hip hop which may be the most important is the record labels. The record labels sign rappers like Joe Budden and Papoose and others and then drop them. Then put their labels behind the Young Leeks that dont pan out. Or put under weak rappers who have no talent like Young Jeezy. The Joe Buddens and Papooses of the world won't be able to put up a legacy because by the time they find a label that gives them full control of the album until they are in their early 30s.
I love hip hop and not all things you love can be perfect but this shit is embarassing when people ask you "oh you are one of those 50 cent fanboys?" because that is the perception from people who don't listen to hip hop.
Peace.....
Monday, November 12, 2007
My Ascension into Hip-Hop Pt. 1
Not many people know this, so i thought i would share it with everyone. And my apologies for not having a quote at the beginning, can't think of any right now, lol. Let me get started.
My ascension into Hip-Hop gradually started in the mid nineties, when i had my tape deck, listening to icons such as Tupac and Biggie, Fat Joe, Big Pun and so forth. I loved listening to music on my tape deck, especially with my brother. I loved listening to it, just the feel of listening to real music made me feel of an almost importance, since i could share my knowledge of HH with my older brothers, both of them HH Heads. Especially my oldest brother (you can find him on the number one spot on my myspace). I could always have an educated discussion about HH with them, although everyone else were on some other bs.
I continued my love for HH onto i would say about, 1999, I had stopped listening to music because it ceased to please my ears, leaving me with nothing but a mere shell of what HH really stood for. The growth of the black community to get their voices heard. Up until i started listening to HH again (which was in about 2003) i did nothing but go to school, bored out of my mind and playing videogames when i got home, it was the only thing worth doing since i had lost interest in HH. However, this did not stay the case.
In about mid 2003, i got my first personal computer, in which i had previously learned to burn cd's, and i wanted to do so with my cd player so i could have a mix. Although, it wasn't quite possible with old ass tape decks (it probably is now with the all tech that's coming out). So in this time period, i went and searched around my house for good cd's to burn, something that could hold my interest, couldn't find anything good until i asked my mother where she kept most of her cd's. In doing so, i stumbled upon a classic (IMO) which was Will Smith's Willenium. Most people might disagree with me on this fact but it does not bother me, it will remain a classic in my eyes. After i discovered this cd, i listened to it for countless hours, actually inspiring me to write lyrics of my own. And this is when it all lit up for me. I will delve into this matter later, peace out until then.
My ascension into Hip-Hop gradually started in the mid nineties, when i had my tape deck, listening to icons such as Tupac and Biggie, Fat Joe, Big Pun and so forth. I loved listening to music on my tape deck, especially with my brother. I loved listening to it, just the feel of listening to real music made me feel of an almost importance, since i could share my knowledge of HH with my older brothers, both of them HH Heads. Especially my oldest brother (you can find him on the number one spot on my myspace). I could always have an educated discussion about HH with them, although everyone else were on some other bs.
I continued my love for HH onto i would say about, 1999, I had stopped listening to music because it ceased to please my ears, leaving me with nothing but a mere shell of what HH really stood for. The growth of the black community to get their voices heard. Up until i started listening to HH again (which was in about 2003) i did nothing but go to school, bored out of my mind and playing videogames when i got home, it was the only thing worth doing since i had lost interest in HH. However, this did not stay the case.
In about mid 2003, i got my first personal computer, in which i had previously learned to burn cd's, and i wanted to do so with my cd player so i could have a mix. Although, it wasn't quite possible with old ass tape decks (it probably is now with the all tech that's coming out). So in this time period, i went and searched around my house for good cd's to burn, something that could hold my interest, couldn't find anything good until i asked my mother where she kept most of her cd's. In doing so, i stumbled upon a classic (IMO) which was Will Smith's Willenium. Most people might disagree with me on this fact but it does not bother me, it will remain a classic in my eyes. After i discovered this cd, i listened to it for countless hours, actually inspiring me to write lyrics of my own. And this is when it all lit up for me. I will delve into this matter later, peace out until then.
I'm addicted
"I say it don't matter if I work at Mickey D's, I still got a fix for what you got between your knees"
- Rapper Big Pooh
Hello, my name is Kent and I'm addicted to females. Lol, naw but forreal the opposite sex is the greatest thing to walk the Earth. Of course all you straight dudes out there already know this. Needless to say we all have a fix for what they have between their knees. I have a bigger fix for their thoughts and actual intelligence level but her "goodies" always runs a close second.
I've stepped my game up I must say though. I went from that dude that use to be scared to talk to them but now I can't stop them from blowing up my phone. But its all good no pimpery(yeah I made it up) going on here. I just feel I'm not ready for a relationship...well either that or all these females I'm meeting around here ain't really worth it. I've met a few but as always something goes wrong when a nigga thinks he meets the perfect female...its all good though...cause it don't matter if I'm dropping fries at Mickey D's!
Finding a good female though is like searching through a crayon box. You always find the ones that are dirty or broken. Or like always...someone has the one you want. Then you come across a good one and what happens? Well I don't know what happens for you but for me it doesn't turn out right. And as much as I'd like to talk about how much I can't stand my ex I feel that she doesn't even deserve the spotlight of being in my blog.
The only other thing I think about as much as females is Hip-Hop. Hip-Hop and females basically make up my brain, besides the occasional death threats and hatery(yes hatery) that runs through my head. But its nothing like listening to Little Brother and thinking of the girl I'd like to invite to come take a ride on my thoughts and switch memory lanes while we dream and wonderin' and in return I'll strip my inhibitions and go skinny dippin' in her stream of consciousness. Yeah I know but hey like I said or well Big Pooh said girl it don't matter if I work at Mickey D's ya' boy still got a fix.
- Rapper Big Pooh
Hello, my name is Kent and I'm addicted to females. Lol, naw but forreal the opposite sex is the greatest thing to walk the Earth. Of course all you straight dudes out there already know this. Needless to say we all have a fix for what they have between their knees. I have a bigger fix for their thoughts and actual intelligence level but her "goodies" always runs a close second.
I've stepped my game up I must say though. I went from that dude that use to be scared to talk to them but now I can't stop them from blowing up my phone. But its all good no pimpery(yeah I made it up) going on here. I just feel I'm not ready for a relationship...well either that or all these females I'm meeting around here ain't really worth it. I've met a few but as always something goes wrong when a nigga thinks he meets the perfect female...its all good though...cause it don't matter if I'm dropping fries at Mickey D's!
Finding a good female though is like searching through a crayon box. You always find the ones that are dirty or broken. Or like always...someone has the one you want. Then you come across a good one and what happens? Well I don't know what happens for you but for me it doesn't turn out right. And as much as I'd like to talk about how much I can't stand my ex I feel that she doesn't even deserve the spotlight of being in my blog.
The only other thing I think about as much as females is Hip-Hop. Hip-Hop and females basically make up my brain, besides the occasional death threats and hatery(yes hatery) that runs through my head. But its nothing like listening to Little Brother and thinking of the girl I'd like to invite to come take a ride on my thoughts and switch memory lanes while we dream and wonderin' and in return I'll strip my inhibitions and go skinny dippin' in her stream of consciousness. Yeah I know but hey like I said or well Big Pooh said girl it don't matter if I work at Mickey D's ya' boy still got a fix.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Alittle bit of strength for the weaklings.
"I guess knowin' I'm weak is when I'm really bein' strong"
- Common
Honestly, I didn't know what this short blog was going to be about. That was until my dad called me not to long ago. Yeah my dad...the dude I haven't seen or spoken to in 10 years. Of course I've wrote him several times while he was locked down and I talked to him on the phone like 4 or 5 years ago. But now I'm 16...I'm almost grown but hey this is for another blog.
'Knowing I'm weak is when I'm really being strong? That makes me wonder son how can I admit I'm weak. What man wants to look in the mirror and admit hes weak? Maybe my confidence is too high or maybe I'm just looking at this wrong.'
Those were my thoughts not to long ago. I never had to admit I was weak. Life showed me I was weak. At times I was down life showed me true strength isn't something you can build up with weights and a workout plan. Life showed me strength is something you get when life builds you up over time.
The more pain I go through the stronger I get. Of course I knew that though but its more to it. The more pain I go through the stronger I get...but the more pain I go through the more I realize I'm weak. But hey, knowing I'm weak is when I'm really being strong right?
- Common
Honestly, I didn't know what this short blog was going to be about. That was until my dad called me not to long ago. Yeah my dad...the dude I haven't seen or spoken to in 10 years. Of course I've wrote him several times while he was locked down and I talked to him on the phone like 4 or 5 years ago. But now I'm 16...I'm almost grown but hey this is for another blog.
'Knowing I'm weak is when I'm really being strong? That makes me wonder son how can I admit I'm weak. What man wants to look in the mirror and admit hes weak? Maybe my confidence is too high or maybe I'm just looking at this wrong.'
Those were my thoughts not to long ago. I never had to admit I was weak. Life showed me I was weak. At times I was down life showed me true strength isn't something you can build up with weights and a workout plan. Life showed me strength is something you get when life builds you up over time.
The more pain I go through the stronger I get. Of course I knew that though but its more to it. The more pain I go through the stronger I get...but the more pain I go through the more I realize I'm weak. But hey, knowing I'm weak is when I'm really being strong right?
Thursday, November 8, 2007
The F Word
"I don't wanna be that guy that gets hugged alot, when you just forgot, the idea of giving us a shot" ~ Louis Logic
No not that F word, get your mind out of the gutter you horny bastards. I mean the "other" F word.
Yes that one. The worst possible statement a woman can tell you.
"Friend". Particularly paired with the phrases "Let's be..." or "I just think of you as a..."
Is it just me or do women only want friends? It seems like every one you become interested in decides they just want to be friends, yet the ones your not interested in want your nutsack.
It's possible that I've just had some bad experiences, but I think there is more to it. There is some sort of "we don't want a man" conspiracy going on.
Okay maybe not. But how come it always seems like women want to be friends with the nice guys, yet date the douche bags("Why do good girls, like bad guys?" ~ DMX). If I had a nickel for every time I heard "my boyfriend is a douchebag"....well I wouldn't be rich, but I would be significantly more fresh to def. Here's a tip ladies....if your boyfriend is a douchebag....LOSE HIS ASS. It's not that hard. I mean really you think it would be common sense. Sadly it isn't. And once you do lose his ass, why don't you give a nice guy a chance. We don't bite, I promise (unless your into that). And then maybe you won't have to complain about your boyfriend being a douche cake.
You know that one guy that you always tell your troubles to? The one that will listen to you bitch for hours without a single complaint? Yeah him. I can guarantee that if he doesn't right now, then he has at some point, liked you. Men don't put that kind of time in for someone they don't care about. And when he says he can never find a woman that likes him...he might just be dropping a hint. Give him a chance, he could very well be that one guy that isn't a jerk that you always told him you were looking for.
So, lets sum this up. Ladies, telling us you want to be friends is the worst possible thing you could do. You might as well tell us you hate us and kick us in the balls with steel toe work boots.
The word friend is instantly associated in the male brain with pain in the nether regions.
And finally ladies, if your looking for a good guy...you probably don't have to look that far. In fact he's most likey right there with you, patiently waiting for his chance that you won't give him.
Your "Friend"
Blue aka 1 Breath
No not that F word, get your mind out of the gutter you horny bastards. I mean the "other" F word.
Yes that one. The worst possible statement a woman can tell you.
"Friend". Particularly paired with the phrases "Let's be..." or "I just think of you as a..."
Is it just me or do women only want friends? It seems like every one you become interested in decides they just want to be friends, yet the ones your not interested in want your nutsack.
It's possible that I've just had some bad experiences, but I think there is more to it. There is some sort of "we don't want a man" conspiracy going on.
Okay maybe not. But how come it always seems like women want to be friends with the nice guys, yet date the douche bags("Why do good girls, like bad guys?" ~ DMX). If I had a nickel for every time I heard "my boyfriend is a douchebag"....well I wouldn't be rich, but I would be significantly more fresh to def. Here's a tip ladies....if your boyfriend is a douchebag....LOSE HIS ASS. It's not that hard. I mean really you think it would be common sense. Sadly it isn't. And once you do lose his ass, why don't you give a nice guy a chance. We don't bite, I promise (unless your into that). And then maybe you won't have to complain about your boyfriend being a douche cake.
You know that one guy that you always tell your troubles to? The one that will listen to you bitch for hours without a single complaint? Yeah him. I can guarantee that if he doesn't right now, then he has at some point, liked you. Men don't put that kind of time in for someone they don't care about. And when he says he can never find a woman that likes him...he might just be dropping a hint. Give him a chance, he could very well be that one guy that isn't a jerk that you always told him you were looking for.
So, lets sum this up. Ladies, telling us you want to be friends is the worst possible thing you could do. You might as well tell us you hate us and kick us in the balls with steel toe work boots.
The word friend is instantly associated in the male brain with pain in the nether regions.
And finally ladies, if your looking for a good guy...you probably don't have to look that far. In fact he's most likey right there with you, patiently waiting for his chance that you won't give him.
Your "Friend"
Blue aka 1 Breath
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Maybe I'm Dreamin'
"Some say that I'm a dreamer cause' I talk about it often"
- Common
Ever since I was a youngin' people have been telling me what to do with MY life. Thats nothing new with most people though. I mean, I can understand why they would tell me. They're much older and wiser(or so they think) and they've experienced more than me. So when I became extremely fascinated with computers no doubt my fam' would start telling me to work with them. Don't get me wrong now theres alot of money in that industry, but sadly over the years my heart has fallen into another area...Hip-Hop.
Hip-Hop has been influencing every thought I have ever since I turned to BET and saw 50 Cent rapping. I know what your thinking...but what 12 year old kid didn't like Get Rich Or Die Tryin'? I didn't stop there though I became a G-Unit groupie. I started fiending for the music and soon various Hip-Hop websites introduced me to Nas, Rakim, Jadakiss, Kool G Rap, and many others. Here I am 4 years later a Hip-Hop Head...who would of thought?
With that being said the thought of sitting behind a desk fixing computers or whatever makes me sick. Knowing that my fam' wouldn't support me if I up and told them I wanted to become a rapper or maybe a Hip-Hop magazine writer(or whatever) makes me ill too. Wanna' know what just makes me wanna' choke a chicken though? The fact that 20 years from now I might look back on my life and say "what if" I took that chance and made a mixtape...or "what if" I took that chance and changed my major to journalism. Knowing that I could be in a place where I felt like I actually belonged. I mean isn't that the point? I don't want to be that guy that could of made it. I want to be that guy that my kids look up to and say "Yo, man my dad was a real MC" or "My dad changed Hip-Hop".
If I decide to chase my dreams then homie don't pinch me and wake me up. Let me sleep...cause if sleep is the cousin of death my dreams died along time ago.
- Common
Ever since I was a youngin' people have been telling me what to do with MY life. Thats nothing new with most people though. I mean, I can understand why they would tell me. They're much older and wiser(or so they think) and they've experienced more than me. So when I became extremely fascinated with computers no doubt my fam' would start telling me to work with them. Don't get me wrong now theres alot of money in that industry, but sadly over the years my heart has fallen into another area...Hip-Hop.
Hip-Hop has been influencing every thought I have ever since I turned to BET and saw 50 Cent rapping. I know what your thinking...but what 12 year old kid didn't like Get Rich Or Die Tryin'? I didn't stop there though I became a G-Unit groupie. I started fiending for the music and soon various Hip-Hop websites introduced me to Nas, Rakim, Jadakiss, Kool G Rap, and many others. Here I am 4 years later a Hip-Hop Head...who would of thought?
With that being said the thought of sitting behind a desk fixing computers or whatever makes me sick. Knowing that my fam' wouldn't support me if I up and told them I wanted to become a rapper or maybe a Hip-Hop magazine writer(or whatever) makes me ill too. Wanna' know what just makes me wanna' choke a chicken though? The fact that 20 years from now I might look back on my life and say "what if" I took that chance and made a mixtape...or "what if" I took that chance and changed my major to journalism. Knowing that I could be in a place where I felt like I actually belonged. I mean isn't that the point? I don't want to be that guy that could of made it. I want to be that guy that my kids look up to and say "Yo, man my dad was a real MC" or "My dad changed Hip-Hop".
If I decide to chase my dreams then homie don't pinch me and wake me up. Let me sleep...cause if sleep is the cousin of death my dreams died along time ago.
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